But Why Is It So Difficult and SLOW?

ARRGHHH!! This New Paradigm sounds really great, but why are things so difficult and slow moving right now?

I completely understand people's skepticism and also experiences of frustration. For the past three years I have been very intrigued by my own lack of, what seems to be, motivation. I have always been a fast moving, high energy person who consistently kept going and going and going... 

In July of 2010, after I made a major change in my life, suddenly the person who I knew could make anything happen quicker than the speed of light, well, she seemed to have disappeared!

As I spoke to more people, I discovered that in the summer and fall of 2010 many people were leaving jobs and relationships that they had been in for eight to ten years. It was like we all woke up out of a depression that we didn't even know we had fallen into. A spell had been broken.

Several people felt as desperate and bleak as I did during the beginning months. Luckily I knew the stages of what I will call a Spiritual Awakening, however that didn't lessen the pain, the confusion, the anxiety, or the hopelessness.  I knew that all of my ego constructs had been taken away from me. In my case, I chose to leave a liberal faith community that I raised my children in, volunteered for, and worked tirelessly to support for over twenty years. In leaving it the way that I did, because I could not allow an extremely unhealthy situation to continue on the part of a church leadership under which I worked for ten years, I knew that I would be blacklisted. At first I was surprised that the larger denomination, which had praised my work as a professional in my field as a youth adviser and a director of faith development, turned its back on me. Because I confronted the hierarchy and Old Paradigm views and rigid system, I was discredited in many ways. This led to the loss of a relationship with a faith and a community that I had built and been an integral part of for over twenty years. It took me a year to fully assimilate all that had occurred. While it felt like a betrayal, as some of the lay leaders of the church as well as the professional leaders in the denomination were very aware of the emotional and mental abuse that the staff was dealing with, I understood that they were too scared to stand out.  No one wanted to speak out and risk disassociation from the system, except me.

So, I left a system that I had invested so much time, effort, emotion, and money into. It was a system and as a system of the Old Paradigm, I had to be free of it. It was perpetuating patriarchal abuse, secrecy, separation, and rigid classism.  When we leave a system, we ourselves must break down. A breakdown leads to a break through. Within a month's time, one of the women that I had always felt connected to at the church contacted me. As we discussed my resignation it became apparent that we would begin our own community, and we did.

So the first thing to note is that when we shift, knowingly or by an act beyond our conscious control, we are being pulled away from something that we believed that we belonged to and that belonged to us. Our chakras enveloped that system as a part of us and when we leave, *YOWCH*, it hurts. We can also feel betrayed, rejected, and abandoned.

Lyrics:
Weapons and warfare
Leave it all back there
Tell all the powers to be
We’re starting something
Built up from nothing
Something you can’t see
And if you have a spark
Then let it grow
You feel the weight on your shoulders
Just let it go
And if you have to leave
Then, let me know
‘Cause I can go it alone
You can go it alone
You can go it alone
We are on our own
You can go it alone
This is a protest
The sound of progress
Tell all the powers to be
We’ll take it back now
Light up the black out
Rise up from your seat
And if you have a spark
Then let it grow
You feel the weight on your shoulders
Just let it go
And if you have to leave
Then, let me know
‘Cause I can go it alone
You can go it alone
You can go it alone
We are on our own
You can go it alone
And if you have to leave
Then, let me know
‘Cause I can go it alone
You can go it alone
You can go it alone
We are on our own

The most important and yet the most devastating thing is to know that we can and we must go it alone.
We have to do this:

In order to do this:

And THIS is the part that is the most difficult:

Because we are just hanging. We are hanging all by ourselves. And we forget that a caterpillar has a structure and a shape to it than must completely redefine its very solid format so that it can become something entirely new.

This cycle of breaking down, being goop, then reforming, takes a long time sometimes. When we have an entire society with its collective consciousness going through such major waking up, it is going to take each one of us an uncertain amount of time to complete this process. We will not be anything like the old creature. In this way we create the New Paradigm with New Creatures. So if during this time you try try try to get a job and it isn't working, that is perhaps because you are in your cocoon and you cannot know or be in the job that is right for you until you have emerged. I understand that this can feel very scary, especially if it involves finances. Remember that this is a collective movement, and therefore we all must step away from perpetuating the abusive economic system that exists. The current rigid structure of the economy must go through its breaking down, being goop, and  reforming cycle as well. We want changes, and they are happening. It is better that they work slowly so that we move everything over to the New Paradigm in a cautious, firm foundational way. We do not lack motivation, we are in our chrysalis stage and as such, no movement is what is necessary (yet), as lonely, confusing, and perplexing as it may feel.

It is no longer one or two people having awakenings now and again, it is the collective desire to do so. The Tipping Point has been reached...it is inevitable.

May Today be A First Day To Begin to have some Faith in each other trusting that we are making it through the difficult and slow times that are valuable aspects of a Global Spiritual Awakening.

Thank you all for what you have been enduring. I have Faith in US.